About Us

During grief, the soul's pain, it's heart cry, it's screams, feel deafening.  

What you are feeling is normal - all of it!! The anger.  The Sad.  The sad mad.  The guilt.  The Depression.  ALL OF IT!!!

And It helps to have someone witness, feel, AND honor YOUR courage in the grieving process...

Compassionate embodied presence eases the pain, the overwhelm, the aloneness...

That's why I consider it an privilege to witness anyone's painful and HEROICLY challenging journey.  

Sometimes I am in awe that we can experience this...AND live to tell.  

I believe it is a precious calling to embody presence in a way that helps you experience being "felt" - which helps keep you from becoming stuck.  

I am honored to mirror your courage & your inner divine process back to you at a time when you likely can't see or feel much of anything!   

For most people sadness is avoided - at all costs. 

We resist feeling it. 

We're scared we will be engulfed in sadness it if we give in to it.  

And we wonder if we start crying, that maybe it will never stop?

 And that. Can't. Happen.

 But then it gets "stuck" in the body - often the lungs - where it can wreaks havoc on health.  

And I learned the hard way to let it flow through me so I could function in life again. 

I have experienced loss repeatedly, deeply  - in nearly ALL areas of my life. 

In my senior year of High School, I lost my grandfather - who was the only real positive male role model in my life, 

and closer to me than my abusive dad - BY FAR.  

I watched him suffer from Asbestos in his lungs for a looooong time.  And then he was gone. 

I felt so powerless and helpless, angry, numb - all of it. 

Then my horse (who was my solace during my most painful times and a comfort during ongoing abuse 

AND was a gift from my grandpa) died in a FREAK accident!

Then my parents went through a divorce. 

Expected - but there goes ALL the childhood dreams of a healthy family....

 AND then I was diagnosed with runner's asthma and lost my ability to run Cross Country which I LOVED.  And was really good at...

It felt like all hopes & dreams drowned in grief.

My whole world crumbled. My body went into shock.  

I developed hives and experienced an undiagnosable illness for a couple weeks... 

- on top of the Asthma diagnosis. 

I had NO idea how to process it all, and being the oldest in a family of 5 kids, I felt responsible for everyone else...

Often, I cried alone.  In the bathroom.  Silent screams aching to be released.

Later on, I went through other losses - of close friends & family through death, moves & betrayal.

Then went through an excruciating divorce which was one of the hardest losses and blows to my soul.

Then I lost another beloved horse, and a business that I LOVED and a life I enjoyed.  

Painful dark nights of the soul...

Often, I felt so hopeless, like why does life have to be so darned  hard?

I remember many times weeping - out of the blue.  

Of going into a room and not being able to remember why I went into it.  

Of feeling completely non-functional. In a fog. 

Thankfully, that wasn't the end of my story, just part of my journey of healing.

What I am trying to express, is that I get it.  

And if we coach together, you can be assured I will hold space for you.  

To sit with you.  

Not to fix.  It's not fixable. 

No judgement - just a sense of being held.  

An emotional womb of caring presence that will hold your heart, and face together the numb, mad, sad - all of it.

In my grief and healing experiences, I gained a heart container of TLC that is awaiting YOU!

Through it all, I am and have learned to process grief in a more supportive and meaningful way 

without silencing all the painful things that need to be felt and heard.  

How to let it pass through my body so it doesn't get stuck. 

How to transmute the pain (in my soul's own sweet timing) into fertile soil for new life.  

How to calm my nervous system so I can feel safe again.

Grief is a painful portal that can feel like the end of the world.  

And in some ways, it is...

It often forces unwanted change. 

It obliterates the ways of being that we once knew.

Sometimes it's so hard, that we wonder WHY bother keep on keeping on. 

We even beg God to just take us. And then we feel shame for feeling what we feel. 

For praying "that" prayer. 

or

We think "So and so has it worse".  "

or say things like:

"I could be going through what so and so is going through."

  Completely denying or minimizing our own pain because it COSTS so much to face it. 

And sometimes we just don't have the energy - the emotional investment to pay... especially when we are alone!

Yet, almost EVERY soul in grief experiences this - and more...

So, I am here to tell you, you don't have to do this part of life alone.  

You are NOT weird, bad, or wrong, for feeling WHATEVER you feel. 

You are experiencing one of the most painful things life can put you through. 

And when we are in pain, we just can't feel that the compassionate, loving grace that beats our hearts and is longing to embrace us.

 We can't hold our own tears as precious. 

BUT they are.

And shaming ourselves or abandoning our hearts via guilt or shame will not ease the pain. 

But we do it.  Because it's all we know....

And our culture does NOT teach us how to work with our emotions.  

How to feel & process. How to never abandon ourselves when presence is most needed.

Most of us received zero training on what we can do physically or emotionally to process what feels stuck...

So...........

We run.  We hide.  We numb.  We escape. 

ANYTHING to NOT feel. 

I finally learned how to hold loving space for myself.  

How to express compassion to my inner child that was aching for love and compassion. 

How my own adult voice in a state of compassion can be one of the most healing voices for my inner child.

So I know how to hold loving space for you during your grief. 

You do NOT need to do this alone, any longer.

I will hold your heart with presence.  With love.  With compassion.  

So you may experience feeling met. Held. Felt. Seen. 

Connected, while experiencing the grief abyss.

And when you can only feel the pain - that's ok, too.  Normal, even.  

Because this can't be fixed.  

It can only be witnessed, honored, and felt together.

And eventually, it eases.  Tiny bit by tiny bit.  And you feel stronger.  A little more alive...

With more love than my heart can hold, let's journey through this part of your life together...